I didn't get a whole lot done in April. Okay, fine, I was a complete slacker. I only got a few dozen pieces up at the giftshop, I was laaaaate with some orders (fortunately, I have forgiving customers, and fewer this month than usual on top of that), I didn't work but a few hours on the anthology, I watched a lot of TV, I did art for me, I had print services essentially shut down, I let emails pile up, I didn't work on any upkeep coding projects... in general, I wasn't as driven as usual. The work I did do was largely non-EMG, for a paycheck - which honestly, is a nice change from slaving endlessly for basically nothing. At the end of the day, I'd go home and be done, not dragged away from my studio thinking the whole evening about the loose ends I should be working on. I apologize for anyone I left hanging this month - I couldn't even always be bothered to reply to things that ought to be important.
And I'm finally starting to feel recharged. I think my batteries had drained, and I was seriously losing my love of my business. I didn't care is that order had been sitting in my inbox for a whole week. I didn't care if FP failed at the starting gate. Screw it, I thought at the beginning of the month. No one appreciates me anyway.
But it's starting to come back.
I've got a pile of gorgeous new coloring books in stock from a company who treated me well. I got a few nice comments about how people were enjoying EMG-Zine and looking forward to my OWA article. I got some good response when I went to shake things up a little at forums. I just ordered a shipment of teas and a few other potential products to play with. I'm starting to feel less "I work so hard and never get anywhere" and more "I have not yet begun to fight."