Ellen Million (ellenmillion) wrote,
Ellen Million


tarlia asked: If you get to go back to a certain point in your personal history and start over again, where would it be and why?

This one stumped me for a good long time.

I wouldn't change anything, I don't think. Because I have *everything.* I have a husband who loves me, a job that supports me, a career that I have confidence will take off eventually, my health (barring minor inconveniences), land, a wonderful pet, a house I can point to and say 'I built that!' and I've got *still* got a whole life in front of me.

But if I had to go back and change something... hmmm... I think I'd go back to the times when I was really young and change the fact that I could get away with things. I was an oddball child, youngest by 10 years, knew enough to intimidate most grownups, and no one ever caught me in my little white kid lies. I think it's made me subconsciously dishonest without recognition of consequences, and I really, really dislike that about myself. My first instinct is always a run-and-hide answer, and I've never really had to justify myself... until Jake. That makes a lot of conflict between us. I don't think about *why* I do things, I just fly by my seat, and I think I'd be a better person if I was more introspective and instinctively honest.

ravenkind asked:

1) What's your secret?

If I told you, it wouldn't be a secret anymore, would it? :P

2) HOW in the WORLD do you manage to DO it, woman? XD

Well, I like to start with good music, and turning down the lights, and oh! You didn't mean do IT, you meant DO it... ;)

Jake thinks I have a condition. He says my guilt gland is hardwired on, and that if I'm not working, I'm not having fun. I may be a touch manic depressive, too, but I've found that the way to pull out of the depressive days is to work, because I get depressed when I haven't accomplished anything. I multitask a lot. I do nearly all my writing on the sly at the day job. I draw while I'm watching TV or sitting in class. I take story notes constantly. And frankly, I don't think I really accomplish an ungodly amount. I don't have kids to occupy my time, and I don't do a lot socially, and instead of watching TV, I usually draw. I draw and write rather quickly... which often shows in my work, I fear - I haven't done anything I would actually consider 'finished' ever... and my business is my single passion. I don't really have other hobbies. I think there's been a healthy does of luck in there somewhere, too. Those are my initial thoughts, anyway.

fireborn asked:

What is one dream, goal, or plan that you used to have and really want, that you now find you no longer want, or have given up, and why?

Theatre. I wanted to sing and dance and act and the whole nine yards. But I came to realize that most theatre people aren't the type I want to hang out with, and that whole broken back thing puts a crimp on lots of dancing as a career.

And for the record, my favorite pizza is artichoke hearts, Italian sausage, fresh tomatoes and green olives with a pesto sauce.

I'll still accept questions.

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