November 25th, 2006

fairysquash

Thinking about writing...

I'm pretty sure I won't be able to pull NaNo out of my butt this year. Possible, yes, but at the expense of other things that NEED to be done, and I'm not going to ride myself too hard. Even if it is year FIVE of failing, and I just watched Ursula do it in a week.

I will be bitter and feel guilty, but I'm somehow not shocked.

Ho Well.

But what really brought me to a halt... I was thinking the other day about Kaz plots and Resla, and I caught myself thinking: "And that will neatly pull together all of her storylines and wrap everything up." And it wasn't just that, but that I was genuinely thinking of putting her away... like a toy I've grown out of. Finalizing all of her stories and walking away.

It made me so... sad.

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I'm going to go figure out where to go next on my nano story, because I am, BY GOD, going to at least make the halfway point, and if my current level of awakeness holds, I may even have something respectable to report.

But don't hold your breath. I'm feeling in general pretty rargh awful about my writing, so I'm not sure this is the best mood to write in. It may also indicate that I have more crap to get out of my system, and hey, an arbitrary wordcount sure can take care of that.

Maybe I'll write about the Northerners coming to the capital city, or flesh out that battle scene I'd roughed out three years ago. Or... bah, just start writing.