Up late last night - there was a storm of rain and wind that woke Guppy up just as I was falling asleep. And she woke up again about 3. I was back in bed by 4ish, but 7:30 was still way too early, even if it was an hour later than usual.
Have a photo of a banana and a serious baby:
I'm probably going to take a big creative hiatus from Torn World. I still love the project, but I'm feeling a bit overwhelmed in general, and it's not being very rewarding right now in particular. I don't have to make money with it (I'm definitely not!), but I do need to feel like I'm getting something back from my creative and administrative efforts, and right now, that's just not happening. I think only two people (literally) are actually READING the serial (I get NO comments, so I'm not sure.) and no one is active in the communities or on the canon board (our last community poll had two respondents other than me), our contests and Muse Fusions have very few entries, from the same two people over and over (and I love these folks, don't get me wrong!), and my last story has been in the story queue for almost a month without being reviewed by anyone, despite reminders.
I'm definitely feeling like I'm wasting my time right now, and my time is in pretty short supply. I do love the project, and I still have stories to tell in the world, but feeling like something is a waste will inevitably show up in the quality of work I do for it, which is just going to be a sinking spiral of negativity and poor material that attracts no one to the project and inspires no one else to get involved and only feeds my own feelings of failure and self-pity. I have no patience for letting myself continuing that trend. Or time!
I have a few ideas for how to keep it moving without me while I take a big creative step back for a few months. And then... we'll see what happens. For now, I have two or three shorts to finish up, a heavy edit on the script for the webcomic, and... I'm done for probably 6 months. That's tremendously freeing to think about!
I will still be writing - I've got some other stories I'd like to tell, and this feels like a chance to finally sit down and tell them. And I've got a lot of artwork on my plates - several commissions and that last Fantastrix piece, as well as a few personal projects that I'm looking forward to. Grow and change and stretch and challenge! I'd even like to try squeezing in some painting here and there, but that seems unlikely in the near future.
And... that was a lot of rambling that was more for me than you*. Now, some food, making cranberry bread pudding, watching half an episode of Dr Who, and some cleaning.
*I do want to emphasize that this is not a guilt-trip, this is a de-tangling of my larger feelings of being overwhelmed and looking at what I can whittle away.