Ellen Million (ellenmillion) wrote,
Ellen Million
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Reminding myself

I have to keep reminding myself - this is the last time. This is the ONLY time that artist pay has been this difficult - I'm tallying royalties on every single freaking thing that I have left in stock (that's not a coloring book). I don't have to, but I think this will be the easiest way to be done already. For GOOD.

I have to keep reminding myself not to take things personally. Imagining slights where there are none is silly and counterproductive. I always get sensitive when I'm doing this task.

I have to keep reminding myself to do the best I can, and not constantly second-guess myself and doubt my answers. I'm not a superhuman, and no one is expecting me to be. Except me.

I have to keep reminding myself to stay on track. My brain wants to wander. It's tired, and cranky, and easily distracted.

I have to keep reminding myself that I'm nearly there. The task looks daunting, but I am through the worst already. Really.

I have to keep reminding myself that I'm not a bad person.

I have to keep reminding myself to breathe.
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